Cause maybe you're just another picture to burn.

Happy dragon new year!

2012-01-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHEENA NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
this new year was by far the boring-est yet bestest one i ever had.
boring because there wasn't much cny gist wherever i went, yet best because it's been a while since my family got together, awesome bonding time i would say. (:
realise that im not all that close with my extended family anymore.
like it's much easier to communicate with the kiddos cause im real kiddy myself, but with the older ones that are around my age, awkward turtles much. ):
ahh whatever, who cares about them, all i need is my family, the cool and awesome quadraplets (with large age gaps), teehee.
i would describe my past weekend in lengthy details but seriously, who needs a boring post to lighten up their boring life?
so here are some pictures of the clothes i wore during cny! (:
ignore my zilianning, i seriously have no idea how else to pose for the picture. LOL
P.S, to that asshole who's not an asshole, here are your pictures, so stop stalking my blog secretly and complaining that i dont post pictures. think im gonna get scolded by him, but ahh whatever~ (:

i was asking everyone whether i should get heels or flats. heels cause i have tons of flats, but flats cause i would be taller then my dad if i do so. so this dude told me to do this, what a smart idea huh! got pretty heels in the end, with the help of EEEEEElaine! :D and yep, it was awkward standing beside my dad, LOLOLOL.

what i wore for cny eve~!

this was pretty much the hairstyle i had throughout all 3 days, yea im boring like that. ):

pretty pretty necklace to fit a pretty pretty romper mummy chose for me! wore it on 1st day of cny~ BOTH ARE PURPLE YAY!

i was bored, D:

ELAINE'S NIECE. I HAVE A LIKING FOR SMALL KIDDOS SO YAY HER. (:

dress for 2nd day! forgot to take a picture of me wearing it so here it is. (:

it's upsidedown but here are the red packets i recieved so far! it's kinda little i know. ): was disappointed that my maternal grandma gave me only 20 though, though im her daughter's kid but she should at least give the same amount she gave all her grandkids. then again! im gonna go visit more people from dad's side of the family this weekend, so hooray to more free money! #punny :D the previous statement just made me sound lyka moneyfaced woman, :x

ohhwells! so now that cny is over, (since the holidays are over i'll just take it that cny is too, D: ) it's time for school again!

sadface sadface sadface.

thankgod for the short week ahead, but it's still gonna be pretty long for me cause of tuitions and homework and debate. hope i could catch a movie or 2 this week though!

really wanna watch longzhongwu, xiaohaibuhuai and jack and jill.

the advertisments seemed funny for the 1st one, i wanna see my hothot joshua and sean for the 2nd one aaaaand i got pretty good reviews from deon and yongxin for the 3rd one. so yep! all 3 if possible! though money might flyfly but it's okayy!

yea right, like i even have the time. ):

the motion for the 1st round of julia gabrials will be out next weekend, so i guess it's gonna debate all the way! yay, not.

after competition on the 10 feb, it's my birthday on the 11 feb!

i was looking forward to celebrate with my babes on 10 feb, but my plans got thwarted ): then when i planned to hangout with them on 11 feb, edward booked me. heard we're gonna play nerfguns! :D

since it's the official training date and joel even offered to treat pizza (actually more like i begged him to), thou shalt spend my bdae with the debate peepo!

hope momma would book a place at peony jade at night though. i kinda miss francis and all the other aunties and dudes working there! ):

if time permits i'll spend sunday with the girls (and boys maybe)! but i bet there will be tons of hmwk soooo deforestation sucks. ):

straight after my birthday comes valentines! and common testsssssss!

gonna make cards and buy presents for all my darlings since its my last year!

though i think i'll be foreveralone with no boyf to tell me he loves me. ): I NEED A BOYF,

JUST KIDDING! who needs one when im happily surrounded by my girlfriends and family huh? (:

this reminds me of my relatives expressions when i shook my head after they ask me if i have a boyf, see the impression us teenagers give adults these days? TSK. (right shermaine, stop acting lyka good kid. you dont have one cause noone wants you, awww #foreveralone, :D )

as for commontests, ahh i dont even wanna think about it. ):

What if wishes came true, what would be the first thing you want to wish for?

Behind this facade lies insecurity,

2012-01-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

ELLO PEEPO! :D
yea im suppose to do bio journal, but ahh, it can wait!
today was a generally good day!
soooo, let's start from the top~ too bored? BYEEEE. (:
got back chem retest results in the morning! I PASSED I PASSED I PASSED. YAYAYAYAYAY.
and for once mrs lim didnt lecture at me while she targetted the others.
She even told me GOODJOB cause she saw that i put in effort! AWESOMEEEEEE.
now for bio, SIAN. dreading to study it. :x

anyohows, i was exceptionally sleepy today. it helped a little when the periods before recess were all single periods, so i got to move about. (:
but it didnt help when none of my periods are in class. which means i have to bring 4 subjects worth of books wherever i went. heavy yaknow. ):<
sucks even more when im only in the same band as yy for 2 subs, but i became closer to more peepo so it's okay. (:
amath test after! shouldnt have been so cocky man. lyk i knew how to do the questions (CAUSE I STUDIED FOR 4 1/2 HOURS THE DAY BEFORE), but i did it too slowly. which means i didnt have time to complete the paper. 8 marks gone, ughhhh.
nevertheless, i knew i studied and that's that. (:
stayed back to help with the class deco after cause cca was cancelled~
swear i love 4e4 lyk mad! :D
amazingly half of the class stayed back to help, including peepo lyk kenji and ck!
though most of the times they were just being annoying idiots, but ahhh boys~!
blast music through my phone the entire time and we dance and sang lyk kukus!
everyone was having a ):< expression, so i started jumping around and being high, and everyone followed after. :D
so the decorations are almost done! YAY E4!

spastic, fun, and weird peepo! :D and obviously childish dudes that makes this class so awesome. <:

homed, slacked and everything.
told my dad about everyone-in-zhss-you-know-who-im-talking-about.
my dad said he was stupid, and he even said stuffs that sounds heartless, i guess prolly to lighten up the mood abit.
anyohows, i was wondering what if it happened to me one day.
without a word, without a hint, and bamm. byebye, the end.
~~would it matter to you, would you even care?~~
10 days and counting, think i could become a record breaker.

it's the 3rd week of january!
time flies! mainly cause ive been so busy for the past 2 weeks. #nolifer #sec4life
this 2 weeks are gonna be extremely busy too.
tuesday - chem ssp, study bio retest, study tingxie!
wednesday - bio retest, tuition, study chem test!
thursday- chem spa, chem test, tuition!
friday - cny celebration, last minute shopping with the babes!
saturday - cca, tuition!
sunday - tuanyuanfan!
monday - COLLECT ANGPAOS!
tuesday - visit junkai's house with yy, yx and co. (maybe? O:)
wednesday - and here comes scool again~
and there, january's gonna be over just lyk that. ):
looking forward to feb though!
MY BDAE, VALENTINE'S DAY AND IDK WHAT OTHER DAYS (maybe more tests? D: )

~~It's on nights like this, when you wonder if you're better off dead.~~

Page 9 and I'm on the edge of this cliff,

2012-01-09T21:29:00.001+08:00

HIHIHI,
it's been donkey years since i blogged. ): felt lyk i had to today, didnt even wish my blog happy new year, HMMM. ):
no pictures or anything cause im in a bad mood.
so the previous week of scool was hectic, bet this week's gonna be worse.
collected my GCE O level chinese results today cause imma hcl kiddo, was kinda pleased with my results cause i attained an A1. (:
but dhen again, cant be complacent or anything...
for those who didnt score well, or for those who dont take hcl and are afraid of the upcoming o's,
LET US ALL WORK HARD TOGETHER FOR THE NEXT 10 MONTHS SO WE CAN OWN OUR SENIORS. YAY. (:
was glad that most of my friends/seniors who collected their results achieved good grades, LYK LEON! 6 pointers with his big face on the big screen in the scool hall.
aims to be lyk him, YAY. :D
wasnt really nervous or anything in fact, until my dad called me before i reported to the hall to collect my results.
the real terror came when dolly ong said there were only 80% distinctions this time around, a drop of 10% from last year's sec 4s. but i guess it all depends on our luck?
so the usual exchanging of results and yadah took place, there were tears of joy and sadness everywhere. maaaaan, heartbreak to see my darlings cry. ):
that aside, love the way my dad exclaimed when i told him i got A1.
lyk everyone else was just exchanging results, going lyk "walao why so good?" or "ohh same! *hugs*" the rituals, the curiousity, to see where you really stand.
me love my dad many many, the only person who genuinely cared and bothered to ask.
then again, i kinda threw my temper at him 10 minutes ago cause he said i was always on the phone, when i really just picked it up a minute before he walked into the room.
hate it when i get maligned, get it alot so yeah. :x
feeling fcking guilty now, actually since the minute he went out of my room cause he had the "i-was-just-being-concerned-and-fyi-im-the-only-person-who-cares-about-a-useless-shit-lyk-you." tone of voice.
JUST KIDDING, everything after the "and" is my thoughts, oops.
and yea, moodkiller started during debate.
lyk i was suppose to show amos a good example and yadah, but i didnt perform my best.
with all the responsibilites and the well-being of other members to take into consideration, im so stressed ughhhhhhhh.
i cant believe i told ed to decide everything when he went lyk "i give you priority luh since you're the most senior amongst them."
guess im too tired to care about anything huh.
mood went further down when i went to collect my pay but they shortchanged me of $160.
lyk i only realised it when im halfway home, so i can only collect it next month, since today was the last day to collect my pay this month. ):
that aside, im gonna be so blardy busy with tests this week and next week i hope i dont die.
sec 4 sucks lyk mad, aiming for my 10 points so i can leave this hell with no regrets, and get into my desired course! *prays~*
after tests comes cny, followed by JGNC for debate, MY BDAE, VALENTINES DAY, and common tests 1!
ahh its so hectic im gonna die!
kaythxbye.

HOHOHO, MELLIE CHRISTMAS!

2011-12-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

No matter who you're spending christmas with, or how you're spending it, I hope you had a fun day enjoying this christmas season with your loved ones! :D

JINGLE BELLS JINGLE BELLS JINGLE ALL THE WAY! :D
i have no idea why, but that's the 1st song lyrics that came to my mind, childhood song, HAHAHAS.
okayy so it's christmas today! :D
how was yours? (:
mine was pretty awesome~ not the get-high-with-fwens-in-a-party-at-town kinda awesome, but yeaaaa.

spent christmas eve out with girlfwens!
met krista, elaine and sherlyn in the afternoon and we headed over to scape at flea.
bought the most stuffs amongst dhem, obviously spent the most money too. :x
ironic how everything's suppose to be mega cheap at flea! but many cheap things add up to one expensive price, oops! now my wallet's near empty, and dad doesnt wanna give me my allowance, sianface!
anyohows, im contented with my christmas haul! :D

bought this dress at a freaking 2 bucks. LOL. the material was pretty thin but it's only 2 bucks, what do you expect? pretty contented with this buy though, since it's mega cheap *auntie mode on*

bought both highwaist shorts and the brown belt at 3 for 15 bucks! it was a really good deal since the shopkeeper said it was already below cost price, and the items were sold at 1 for $8, 3 for $15. one would be a dumbo not to get 3 items, LOL. dhere wasnt really much to choose from so got these 3 items, (:

this is actually a shirt, no idea what it's called. the picture doesnt give it credit, but it's actually pretty cute. (: wanted another black one with a front pocket really badly but it costs $20, ): and this only costs $8 so got this instead. (:

THIS. love at first sight when i saw it! though it costs 8 bucks, but it's worth it! yep. maybe. kayys maybe not. :x buuuuut, i got the ring below as a 2nd item, so it had a 50% off, (: (: (:

bought stuffs from guardian too! lady products so im not gonna show all of it here. LOL.

yep! that's how i spent away all my money, OOPS. :x
homed and smiled at my parents cause i was late by lyk 1 hour, LOL.
ohh, was reading maomao too and i realise it gets kinda sad, ):
from chapter 13 onwards, you'll feel lyk maomao's fwens are all really awesome peepo, especially laobeipo! everything becomes sweet x2 since he's so old, and since maomao aint even his relative or anything. ):
dont even think peepo lyk this in the real world even exists anymore, WOW. ):
picture below's 2 paragraph that really got into me.
yes, imma sentimental lady. )":

spammed texted my close fwens once christmas started!
texted lyk 50 over peepo, this inculdes unexpected ones who texted me too~
thank god for unlimited texts. LOL.
texted while trying to read maomao, not an easy task replying 20 over peepo who decided to continue convo with me after the wishes every second. :x
texted lyk a remaining few owls till 4 plus am and was about to sleep when deon called me.
he wanted to suan me about my slowness of reading maomao, but i ended up making him help me draw the cover page. LOL.
so phoned till lyk 6.30am and FINALLY SLEPT. :x
spent half of christmas day sleeping, as usual~
dad woke me up at 2pm! he has the worst way of waking someone up, lyka annoying only. :x
mood didnt get spoilt though, cause i wokeup to this!

it's been a long time since i had this many texts! :D lyk what, 6 months? LOL. used to be a crazy texter when i didnt have unlimited texts. :x now im just kinda sian of texting, so apart from 4 text buddies my phone's kinda dead... ): ohh, and i think my background's pretty cute. :D

went to nex to meet momma after to help her carry stuffs!
lyk she bought our books and shoes and yadah~
homed, and dinnered!
momma bought the dinner thingy from cold storage, so food was HEAVENLY. :D
sound lyka glutton but idc, have been craving for food 24/7 these days, cause imma small girl growing up you see. <:
didnt take a picture of it though, cause i forgotten to.
but i took a picture of our dessert! it's this choc cake from icing room, tasted heavenly! think im starting to lyk choc all over again. (:

dheres this green biscuit at the bottom row that's pretty out of place, cause my mom ate the one that was supposed to be dhere, and i was complaining that the hole looked ugly while taking a picture. so she plucked out one from the back and placed it dhere. "problem solved!" LOL, she's so cute at times. <3

cute snowman, ^^

aaaaand, the box's kinda pretty too! (:

teevee-ed after, was excited to watch the mooncake show, the japan-singapore collaborated love story. cool storyline, but the ending was arupt ):
was suppose to have a conference call with yongxin, junkai and ruiwen at 11, but somehow it failed. LOL.
ahh whatever. (:
ohh! have been watching loads of youtube videos these days!
mainly youtube videos of vloggers, cause they're so awesomely funny. (:
peepo lyk shane dawson, kevjumba, local vloggers lyk dee kosh and SAMMY DEE (cute guy alert! ^^) too!
go check out their videos! :D i'll prolly post some vids i favourited in the next post. (:
ohh, if you're in a bad mood, watch we got married!
ESPECIALLY YONGHWA AND SEOHYUN SERIES!
guarantee plus chop you'll laugh lyk mad every episode. <:
ohh, and i realise minhyuk, the drummer from CN blue is kinda cute too! :D
he acted in heartstrings too! as this really cute dude who will love everyone and anyone who gave him food, kawaii! :D
off to watch another episode of we got married, and maomao! :D
byeeeee!

Cause you gotta learn to cherish, before it's too late.

When dreams turns into reality,

2011-12-16T23:48:00.001+08:00

Mine's lazy, passionate, loyal and happy! quite true~ what's yours? (:

eons since i blogged!
decided to do so earlier tonight since im gonna doze off any minute now~
this week was eeeeeemazing!
had family bbq on tuesday, best part was playing with the kiddos!
love die all of dhem, except some boys who wont stop hitting me. ):
went shopping for food with elaine and sherlyn on wednesday!
had class bbq the next day so we 3 aunties decided to do the class a favour by buying the chips and drinks. <:
actually i dragged elaine and sherlyn along, LOL.
came back to my house to nua after, hmwk session failed (AS ALWAYS!)
chitchatted at our usual spot, elaine calls it the pavillion of secrets! <:
had fun hanging out with dhem, :D

thursday!
had 1e5/2e6 gathering/kenneth's surprise birthday celebration at my place!
had to admit that front part was pretty disappointing, since last year''s gathering was much more enjoyable, :x
but things livened up when we celebrated kenneth's bdae!
apparantly the birthday boy got thrown into the pool by yongxin and gang.
swear those bunch of dudes are bigtime betrayers!
after kenneth, they decided to target junkai and yx.
those 2 decided to ally but jk disappeared and yx was the only who got thrown in.
twice actually, 2nd time was by me, LOL.
then yx was lyk "i kena you also kena hor!" and dragged me down. attempting to sit on the floor so he couldnt budge me failed. D:
guard came and we got scolded, even got screamed at by my mama. :x
after cake cutting, the others started to leave except for yy, elaine, junkai, fred, yx and nicolas.
we sat at the pavilion and played 5 10 15, truth or dare and chitchatted.
even got forced to drink cause they wanted me to spill out secrets, cunning bunch~
got high after half a can so i stopped, didnt really fancy the taste and the others were freaking out, oops~
epic comments/secrets were made and spilled out. mostly by yy and junkai.
laughed pretty much, love that bunch. <:
after awhile the others left except elaine, yy and yx.
tonned, chitchatted, went crazy and yadah.
almost got knocked out quite a few times but we survived till 6!
yx was the noob one who slept at 5~
elaine took the first bus home and the rest just slept all the way till 11.
was the 2nd to wakeup! after yx.
we gave each other blur looks that made me burst out laughing, LOL.
washed up and yy that lazy bum kept nua-ing on the bed complaining how tired she was. TSK.
mini h2h with yx while waiting for her, then he trained home while me plus yy went to dhoby to meet clarissa, tinghong and kenji to celebrate his bdae!
lunched at astons and movie-ed after.
we watched mission impossible, wanted to watch already famous but there was only one timing. ):
mission impossible was awesome though! giving it a 5-star rating since the sound system and starbucks made it daebak x2, (:

and yeah, this week actually went by pretty quickly!
tuition tomolow, hmwk day on sunday, WORK ON MONDAY. YAY YAY YAY!
flying off to hk for a week, aaaaand when i return, all my energy will be on retests!
and prolly a few days to work too. :x
aiming to complete bio and maomao!
prolly geog and chem tys too if i have the time~
yep, that's the plan! now to follow it. HMMM.
ohh before i go, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENJI!
this is the gazillionth time im wishing you so be honoured. <:
thx for being forever there for me, as a son, a fwen to talk to, or someone who's forever lame.
knowing you made me smile alot more, so xiexieni!
GROW TALLER, hope she falls for you all over again, AND remain awesome!

P.S, i wanted to post pictures but it's already on ELAINE's blog so go visit it. :D it's on facebook too so yeah. (: ohh except this pic!

i just had to do it, LOL. thought my magnet went pretty well with what yx wrote on my board, HEEZ. :D

P.P.S, realised i look pretty shag. ignore ignore, was running 'round acting crazy, explains the oily face and screwedup fringe. and i needa cut my fringe soon, hmmm.

This empty feeling won't stop haunting me.

Runaway love,

2011-12-01T00:10:00.001+08:00

"It's not like love at first sight, really. It's more like... gravity moves.... suddenly. It's not the earth holding you here anymore, she does.... You become whatever she needs you to be, whether that's a protector, or a lover, or a friend."
" If you kill her, you kill me."
- Jacob Black

just finished watching twilight saga, eclipse part 1 on the net.
i wonder why anyone even hates that show! the story might not be realistic but imma rather lalaland kind of person so i love it, loads!
my heart kinda goes out to jacob though it's a story and everything.
he's crazy over bella but cant have her, aaaand he has to watch the woman he loves, loves someone else.
at the end of the day, he ended up imprinting on her daughter, which is a semi-vampire, which kinda makes dhem enemies. :x
not trying to be a party pooper, but yep! bella got married to edward, had sex, and a baby girl (called renesmee~ im still quite disappointed it's not a boy cause i wanted the baby's name to be EJ, which means edward jacob, wanted jacob to be remembered one way or another. :x)
so back to the story! bella almost got killed and she got changed into a vampire when she almost died after giving birth~
cant wait for part 2 to be out! and im absolutely on to watch part 1 in the cinemas again. (:
talking about imprint, i was fascinated by it. went to the net to did a little research on it~
now im hoping some werewolf will appear infront of me and imprint on me (since the imprintee would most prolly accept the imprinter, PLUS the imprinter would do anything, absoutely anything to keep his loved one safe, since his love for her is... let's just say infinity is too shallow a word to describe it.)
romantic huh? right, im night-dreaming, but i gotta say being an imprintee (especially if someone as hot as jacob imprints on you) is prolly the best thing that could happen to anyone!)
okayy back to earth.
today was... uneventful.
let's just keep it as that~
it's december already! 4 more weeks till my hols ends, man that's fast. super duper mega fast.
im prolly gonna spend my first day of dec hmwking, contemplating whether to go out on friday cause i needa go back to scool to clear my locker.
shall try my luck with anderson to work during the weekends.
hk trip soon! excited maybe, disappointed definitely, worried duh, annoyed who cares.
let's just leave my thoughts as that, dont wanna get the cold shoulder nomore.
ohh dheres this video on youtube that got everyone talking today. it's about this 15 year old who had sex 300 times already. maaaan, teenagers nowadays. im so embarrassed to even classify myself as a teenager. -.-
where did all those self-respect and love for thyself disappear to these days? humans..... sometimes i would rather be a puppy, or a hamster, or some animal that's cute and loveable and aint human.
that way, i wont have to face all the crap in this world ever again, yay.

Baby hold me tight and tell me everything's gonna be alright.

Xin loi Vietnam, again!

2011-11-30T00:52:00.001+08:00

HEYYYYYYYY HUNKS AND BABES! missed me? :D
I'm omw back to singapore! On the plane actually, so I'm writing this blog post in notes. Aaaand blasting music in my earpiece at the same time. (:
Vietnam trip was kinda fun! Though 5 days with no text/internet connection was kinda arduous. ):
I tried writing a post as the day goes by on the first day, thinking that I'll have wifi at the hotel. Ends up we gotta pay a skyhigh price for it, so much for a 5 star hotel. ):
Lost all drive to write about anything for the remaining days after. :x
Anyways, main purpose of the trip was my bro's art competition. Guessed what! He won 4th runner up, amongst hundreds of other kiddos from various countries. Not bad for a first timer huh! :D
Visited various other tourist attractions too, most where I've already been to before last year.
Was the know-it-all for once, since I'm usually the know-nothing-at-all. :x (or maybe I'm just too lazy to bother, HEEZ)
Didn't shop much too! Though my loots were awesome. (: could have gotten more, but my dad's an obstinate assx, caused me to lose many of the good loots which I really wanted. ): but whatever, I'm gonna go shopping with the girls soon!
With my own money of course, so noone can make me feel bad about anything, (Y)
Fav part of my trip?
Loooooooong bus rides where I usually stare out at the scenery. Love that peaceful feeling, where dheres nothing on my mind, or noone bothering me. (: love it when my dad would tell me all sorts of stories. From his past to our relatives and some he saw on the net.
When I was sleepy I could sleep on his shoulders lyka kid again, me like. (:
Love how I got along well with some other kiddos too!
I don't do well with primary scool kids, but kids who are younger are kinda fun to be around. (:
Felt honored when dhey fight to sit beside me during meals or when dhey laugh at my lame jokes. Not to forget, I made new best fwens!
A few games of heart attack, a high 5 and I was officially their buddy.
Reminiscence, why aren't I still a kiddo. ):
So it's 9.51pm now, Vietnam time. Which means it's 10.51 pm sg time!
Another 1 hour to go and my contacts feels dry. Have been wearing it for 15 hours already. ):
And I feel lyk peeing but I'm too lazy to get out of my seat. :x
Ohh, I'm in my shorts and slippers too! Have been flying since forever but every single time I'll be in jeans and shoes, this time? Let's just say I'm too lazy, again. Smiley face, (:
I realized an interesting fact too!
Went to Vietnam with the scool last year on the same date as going with my family this year! I'm also returning on the same date too.
Pure coincidental, how cool is that? :D
Think I'm gonna lose my already minimal curve soon, ate loads during the trip. Lyk 2 servings for every meal and snacks in between cause I was forever hungry. :x
I'm prolly gonna go to class gathering tmr, if dhere is even one. O:
Shall slack for the rest of November dhen it's hw/girls day out/work for the rest of dec.
Already planned out my schedule, though I know I prolly won't follow a detailed one, so I merely made a skeleton.
Gotta prove to myself that i can do it, before I can even convince others, no?
Peektures soon! Used 3 diff cams to take dhem so I need some time to filter and compile. Glanced through my dad's cam and I looked lyk shit in most of dhem, can't be bothered though. :x
gonna post this post once we land and dheres 3G, hail to whoever who created Internet on the phone!
Off to sleep, #nowblasting, the story of us seems lyka tragedy now.
xoxo, ME.

P.S, 11.47 pm now, sg time!
Phone's gonna be batt-less soon, bro's sleeping on my lap and couzzie's throwing her temper. My eyes are barely open, but I see sg! :D

P.P.S, 12.45 am, just got on the taxi~ dead beat, dry eyes, full bladder!
Felt kinda happy when I received a whole lot of texts once I got down though. (: but kenji says that combined gathering tmr is cancelled. ): ohhwellxzx~

We're smiling but we're close to tears,

2011-11-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

If I earn more money than my parents, does that mean I get to call the shots? :D

vietnam tomolow~!
not excited as before cause i just got shouted by mama.
sian, that's lyk the only think i dread about the entire trip.
was busy telling my texting partners how excited i was, but deep down i know it's not gonna be the same as going dhere with fwens, since parents will always be parents.
aaaaand my bro's still a kid, soooo meh.
plus i cant text, for 5 WHOLE DAYS, candieone. :x
gonna miss texting yy and dy and kenji, these 3 made me smile nonstop these few days. ):
im gonna miss MAMA, the charity show and some other dramas too!
not to forget class gathering. everything just have to happen when im gone. dont see how anything happened to me for the last 3 days. =.=
ohh whatever, let's just hope it's gonna be fun.:x
one more week left till dec!
nov have been crap, but it kinda went past quickly so i guess it was okayy~
think im gonna try hwk-ing/shopping with the girls whenever im not working. home is the worst place to hmwk, #foreverfail
aaaand dheres still retests to study for, tuitions to go to, movies to catch and books to read.
gonna make dec fulfilling, at least that'll make my parents happy for once. +_+
im kinda proud to say that im officially guy-free too~
chatting with yy and krista made me realise that brownpen or cute dude are just eye candies. perfect boyf material but no feelings attached.
dhen again, i always fall for jerks. soooo at least i know dhere aint any jerks in my life now, thats a good thing, right? :x
short post today~
i hope dhere'll be free wifi in the hotel so i can blog/twitter/movie on my phone.
nopoint whatsapp-ing since none of my texting partners have iphone, #sianface ):
bye guys!

'Cause this life's too long and this love's too strong.

Tired of drifting round and round,

2011-11-22T22:13:00.001+08:00

Exactly. Hope life would take a good turn someday, soon, now, this instant.

these few days have been from bad to worstest, ):
soooo it started with friday, went back to keppel club to work but the mr cute guy wasnt dhere, so was kinda moody at the start, :x
dhere was some dinner that night so me and linshao was incharge of 2 tables.
kinda fun! though it was hectic as mad. talked abit and yadah, he's a fun guy, (:
he's kinda sweet too! the dudes had this routine smoking session at the balcony and asked us along, but he didnt go cause i told him that i detest smokers, and if he went alone i would be a loner~
stayed back at the restaurant to chitchat more, laughed quite abit while otw home too, (:

saturday came and went, i kinda forgot what i did except dinner at some famous chicken rice restaurant with family. laughed quite abit. (:
grandparents' house after, AND ME HAD DURIAN! :D
the most delicious-est fruit, ever. (:

sunday! worst day of my life in a long time, :x
so i was late for work, and everything unlucky just came one after another
for starters, dhere was a wedding at the restaurant that day, and since dhere were too many newbies from tcc but too few waiters from kc, i was unknowingly incharge of 2 wedding tables, since i was the only oldbie from tcc.
was kinda scared cause i was used to listening to orders all along, linshao offered to help but the manager made him takecare of the newbies upstairs, so meh i was a loner, again.
got lectured pretty bad throughout cause i "forgot this and forgot that" from what mingyang said, but truth is i didnt even know a shit.
got scalded by sharksfin soup too! (did i mention how i detest that soup too?)
slipped and fell cause some asshole had to wet the kitchen floor and stuckedup mingyang kept chasing after me to serve the food.
thank goodness the pot of friedrice didnt topple or anything, but now i have a blueblack on my left knee, sian only. ):
dhere were some pretty kind souls around though!
the female manager for a start helped me clear tables at times, and this other singaporean dude kept asking if i needed help.
"dont care mingyang luh, he super stuckup one. you okay? need help must tell me ahh, xmm!"
yeah, the waiters dhere love calling me xiaomeimei, =.=
was feeling pissed off and yadah when i felt a buzz in my pocket, realised that linshao texted me and told me to knockoff already cause it was half an hour past my knockoff timing. (when you're too busy running about, you wont even realise that time passed by quickly/you're tired, which is kinda lyk a good thing, (: )
instinct reaction was to smile, dhen wonder how he knew.
turned around and he was leaning against my work station, drinking my coke. talk about self service, LOL.
ranted abit to him and he said he heard about my bad day cause that singaporean dude told him, bad news do travel fast huh. ):
changed out of my work attire and just as linshao and his fwens were chasing me away, the male manager came and told them off. epic moment when he thought i was getting bullied, LOL.
manager asked about my day, knew better then to tell him the truth so i changed the topic and tried to tell him the dudes were innocent, :x
he started to bitch about the others in hainanese, which made me laugh a little.
i have one hell of a manager, LOL.
ranted everything to my mama through the phone omw out, peach red tea-ed after also calmed me down abit, (:
20/11/2011 kinda sucked, but now im ready to go back dhere to work! talk about postive attitude, yayme~

monday came, went m'sia with family!
spent first half of the day travelling in, breakfast-ing at kfc and watching my bro play animal kaiser.
food at kfc was crap, should have took a picture of it, :S
sat around at some kids "timezone" watching my bro and his newfound fwen play animal kaiser.
i still feel that it's a waste of money (peepo are willing to spend a hundred bucks on 1 card, ?!?!?!)
but he's proud of his collection, kinda jealous of how he's so easily pleased.
gone were the days when i spend all my time on my sticker book, you see.
shopped abit, but had to rush back cause dad had to return to his office.
wanted to lunch first but i was too full, so we bought shilin and pizza (AND DURIAN).
after travelling abit my stomach began to growl and so stopped to snack at some cafe.
my tummy's weird, HMMMM.
had to rush through our meal again cause the ticketing officer came, since my dad had no parking ticket we were only given 15 min to eat, epic much. LOL.

it's tuesday today~
woke up at 2plus again, :x
barely finished half of my lunch since i was sick of maggie and i didnt feel hungry.
teevee-ed for the rest of the day.
felt kinda down for the entire day for idk what reason.
pms, maybe.
or maybe it's me feeling insecure of myself.
after julian's casual remark, quenton's cold joke and my dad's incessant teasing, i guess im gonna smile alot lesser these days. maybe until my parents decide to grant my wish since forever.
or maybe it'll never happen, dhen i'll never smile again, yayme.
the only person that made me smile today was my bro, he's also the only person that irritated me today, otherwise i was pretty much moodless the entire time. hmmm.
vietnam trip soon! boy am i looking forward to it.
not because im going overseas or anything, but because i could finally escape from this f-edup place, away from all these unhappiness and whatnots.
planned to hw today, movie tmr and pack my luggage on thursday before i fly on friday.
but since i didnt hw today, it's pushed to tmr so no movie!
im gonna hit the cinemas after vietnam and prolly go for movie marathon, anyone? (:

Baby its not just you, it hurts me too.

My twisted fairytale,

2011-11-17T20:51:00.001+08:00

“ 如果能永远活在过去，我宁愿不要未来。”

“可是整天只为了过去而哭泣，值得吗？”

it's been a week since i posted, oops. :x
was actually watching quite a few drama recently.
just completed 醉后决定爱上你 yesterday!
it's lyk the best drama i've seen so far, cause it can be funny max this minute, and heart-wrenching the next. kept crying and laughing to myself, thank goodness dhere wasnt anyone around. :x
anyways, it's DEFINITELY a must watch! even zq agrees wimmie. (:
have been nua-ing alot at home recently! still feel bad rejecting peepo to go out. movie, k, pool, shopping, yadah. i always back out at the last minute cause i didnt feel lyk dolling up.
think if anyone sees how i look lyk now nonone will believe im... me. LOL. too much nua-ing perhaps. :x
it's friday tmr! which means work, which means... money? HMMM.
wish hope pray everything goes well. (:
and ive been contemplating whether to change my blog url or not, cause i've decided to put down the past, but this url and the person who helped me think of it was once someone very important~
plus i dont find myself deep in love with anyone now, so maybe i'll change it to something cooler, lyk mytwistedfairytale? (okayy maybe it's not that cool, :x)
idk why but it was the first name i thought of and it kinda appealed to me, so i might change it when i get back from vietnam trip!
trip's in a week's time~ whole family's going thx to my bro, who's gonna go dhere for some art competition. that little kiddo is kinda cool huh? #proudsis96
going back to ho chin minh city! bet it'll bring back memories, hope it'll be as fun as going dhere with fwens! (:
ohh and i borrowed books the other day soooo more reading to be done, (:
gotta start on my hw too, and fulfil dates with ELAINE and other peepo! :D
but im still kinda sad that class gathering falls on the date of vietnam trip, SIANFACE. ):
hope dhere will be another one, prolly when im free! (:
last but not least, some videos/pics that explains a small paragraph of a small page of a small chapter of a small series of my life story, smiley face!

我们都傻 - the song, the mv, the lyrics, the plot, the memories, the feelings, everything.

那些年 - THIS MOVIE. I WANNA WATCH. BUT IT'S NC16, D: from what i heard and saw, the dude has a sad life. actually any cute guy who has a hard time getting his girl has a hard life. okayy im bias, but still! :x any over 16 kind samitarians wanna get the tix for me? ):

THOMAS PRICE - one of the actors in zuihoujuedingaishangni. he beats yonghwa and taeyang and taecyeon and EVERYONE. his body is CRAZY, see the pecs? ^^ aaaaand half eurasian half cheena, dudes that are mixed blood is forever hot, HEEZ. :D on top of that! he's lyk an all-rounder, sports, dj-ing, studies, modelling, acting, aaaand a family lover. is he perfect or perfect? :D the only weird part is that he was the lead actor in this movie called Amphetamine, which was kinda a gay movie. :x but whatever! he was sweet and everything while acting as rickie in zuihoujuedingaishangni, so perfect boyf, new eye candy, MMM. if only i can meet a dude lyk him in prolly half a decade later? :D

And who do you think you are, running 'round leaving scars, collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart.

Once upoon a time,

2011-11-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

YAY! :D

happy 11/11/11!
have been in a happy mood all day long~
spent my morning with sciences, dhen lunch with family!
dad joined too cause he was otw to meet a customer~
bro went art after and me plus mama went shopping!
bought lyk tons of stuffs, even tees from punk star!
joined the membership card, so if anyone wanna buy stuffs from dhere can take my card and get 10% off! i sound lyka auntie but at least imma kind kiddo. :D
ohh and she kinda re-bought my entire work attire. polo tee, pants, and shoes cause she thinks she has a better taste dhen me, in work clothings only of course. <:
homed after and nua-ed all the way.
even played cards with my braaaather. from duel masters to uno to deal, good time good time~
kept missing calls from tcc though. teevee!
lyk missed anderson's but returned after, dhen yong called me at around 7 but i only noticed it now. which means i cant call back till tmr, if i even remember.
still wondering why didnt i notice it earlier, god im not in my right mind today.
even forgot about tmr's open house till my junior texted me and reminded me to bring my thropies. oops. :x
have been smiling all day, keeping myself occupied with family.
so i was wondering who i should spend my day with on this special day.
thought of a few girls last night but all had cca, and elaine had to go home so early!
the guys were available, but decided to head home in the end cause someone kept coming into my mind.
feeling dumb and all. we only knew each other for 5 hours, but im yearning to see this person already.
must be that look and those words and that longing smile, or maybe im reading too much into it.
ahh whatever, at least i know we wont be meeting ever again.
anyways, me love my family. <3
gonna go shopping with mama after open house tmr, dhen work after! long day but it's gonna be fun! :D
texted peepo i love at 11.11 am, and here i am blogging at 11.11pm!
maybe not exactly since it's 11.08pm, but i'll hit the publish button 3 min after, sooooo hope everyone else had a good day too! if not, dhen dheres always every other day, so smile! (:

My only love strum from my only hate.

Soul meets soul on lover's lips,

2011-11-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

I'm living in a life where I'm forever pursuing, never resting, and constantly on the verge of this phase in life - dying.

reason why i love tumblr?
it always has stuffs that describes my exact mood.
so ive been having the urge to blog the entire day.
and so i was thinking of what to talk about in the shower,
a whole long post and all. (as usual)
thought about the rat race, where you go on and on, yet never really achieving what you want.
thought about this numb feeling in me, where im emotionless and feel lyk i lost my way in life.
everything i do is wrong and everything i say is ignored.
had a whirl of emotions today.
from feeling euphoric to feeling lyka depressed kid.
guess i can sum up my day in 2 words: I'M TIRED.
of prolly everything i guess.
i was secretly looking forward to heading down to the library tmr to borrow some books and feel good about doing something constructive.
but i realised that dhere was o's to study for and homework to complete.
and i'll start planning timetables and all, freaking out every hour, trying to recall and check if i missed out anything.
but when stuffs happened and i didnt follow exactly to my schedule, i'll throw a temper and start to procrastinate.
this leads to last minute work and regrets, and this whole cycle would start all over again.
yaknow how it feels? to try so hard and please everyone, by following wherever they go, doing whatever they request for or just tryna put a smile on their faces. yet at the end of the day, one tiny mistake makes you look lyka assx, lyk you arent even needed from the start.
people would abandon you for other people they love or other things they wanna do.
and you cant really blame them, cause they dont live for you. yet at times lyk this you'll realise that you cant really rely on anyone to be constantly there for you, supporting you and cheering you on.
noone would do that forever, nope. not even your family, FAT HOPE.
in primary scool, i liked to construst poems and all, and i thought "A good deed a day keeps the death god away." or "A sweet smile a day keeps the darkness at bay."
immature, yet it came from a mind that believed more than darkness, lies, cheats and whatnots.
growing older is scary, really.
idk why this post came out lyk that, it was suppose to be a 5-liner. :x
whatever it is, may the rest of the week past by quickly and may god have mercy on me.

on a side not, i think i really need a book, and starbucks, and chocs, and more importantly, BLACK POLO TEE. maybe tmr, maybe. (:

I would fly you to the moon and back if you'll be . . . if you'll be my baby.

Que Quowle,

2011-11-07T02:18:00.001+08:00

All I want is for you to to feel proud of me for doing something right, at least for once.

1.44 am now!
have been watching the first 3 movies of twilight for the enitre night.
think bella's a lucky woman.
2 hot guys love her more dhen anything else, aaaaand she gets to choose what she wants or who she wants. not literally, since she's fictatious and all.
but dhen again, mehhhhh. D:
eclipse kinda bugged me. it kinda reminded me of 2 important peepo that were once in my life.
both doing alot, one doing much more but not getting what he deserves.
"You know I love you."
"You dont know how much I want it to be enough."
kinda saddening when bella still chose ed over jacob, (ignore my drama-mamaness)
not that i chose anyone but...... kayy change topic.
looking forward to watching breaking dawn!
but i wanna watch footloose first, anyone?
yet first thing's first, dheres still scool and exams till friday.
i kinda remembered that i have scool on friday 30 seconds ago, which means i shouldnt have agreed to anderson's request to work on thursday, night. oops. :x
and i just realised another 30 secs ago that scool ends on 11 on friday.
sheeeeeet, work starts at 11, better make some changes tmr morning, D:
and so im working at keppel club on thurs night and prolly friday afternoon, TGIF on weekend nights this week, anyone wanna come by? :D
i already have some promised visitors, but the more the merrier~ (:
ohh, and i kinda appreciate how the dudes put up with my whines and support me.
think i'll be a lonely emo if its not for dhem.
not gonna mention names cause it'll prolly cause trouble, plus dhey wont read my blog too, but yea, thx bros. (:
of course dheres sisters too!
missed flea with sherlyn, siyu, elaine and her beau today, but i promise dhere will be a next time! (:
and at that time, it's time for some story telling~ <3
the weekend flew by kinda quickly. not that it's slow any other day. but somehow it makes me feel extra empty when im stuck at home alone wasting my life away.
cause sometimes, in lonely nights lyk this, it would be good if anyone would cuddle up with me and tell me everything's gonna be alright.
at least at that time, i would feel that im loved, that im wanted, and that im needed.

P.S did i mention how cold wars with anyone makes me feel lyk a useless piece of junk? #justsaying~
P.P.S life's still good, right?

I'll love you till my heart stops beating.

Your love is a lie,

2011-11-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

Housewives have the saddest life, ever. LOL.

happy (late) 1/11/11!

was kinda lazy to blog yesterday, but it's not really my fault! gotta blame my bed for stuffs lyk that~
had bio spa today, screwed up a teeny bit. forgot to wear goggles while burning and i placed my crucible above the flame. idk what i was thinking. =.=
but realised both mistakes 5 seconds after! hope the teacher's kind enough! ):
nex-ed after scool with krista.
bought my black pants! now im all ready for work. (:
madjack after, felt lyk a freaking retard ordering our food cause we looked lyk cheapos. :x
but the food was good so yadah!
walked abit and talked after.
i had the perfect life, or will have the perfect life when my results improve. but i gotta screw it all up. cant really blame myself though, it's just too bad my heart wont listen to my head.
one year of trying but to no avail. ohhwells, who needs a guy? family, friends, studies, money, that's enough. for me. for now. yes...?
homed, booked, sleep, dinner!
wokeup to my mama hollering at my dad to eat. she brought the maid back to the agency for a few days, cause she was forever giving us troubles.
having to lock your valuables in your own home, not a good feeling huh! ):
dinner was alright, i swear im not gonna be a housewife nexttime. cant take the toll and boredom manxzx.
i need a cool husband! healthy, rich, reliable, goodlooking and all. why does this description sounds lyk brown pen. LOL.
ahh whatever, i shall worry about that a decade later. as for now, single's the new awesome. (:

P.S DEAR ELAINE, YOU AND ME HAVE A DATE TO FULFIL. OBVIOUSLY I DIDNT FORGET ABOUT YOU, I WAS JUST SECRETLY AFRAID THAT JON WOULD BE JEALOUS OF ME. YOURS SINCERELY, THE WOMAN YOU LOVE. :D

P.P.S i have shopping dates with sherlyn and lix and yy too! :D

I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger.

Do you hear that love,

2011-10-31T23:54:00.002+08:00

I don't intend to hurt any of you, but moving on with life...

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :D
singapore should totally celebrate it with more vibe~
kinda sad that i didnt celebrate it this year, but yadah!
dheres always many other years. :D
today was kinda slack~ feels weird not having any hw or anything to do!
books, teevee, twitter, mundane yet kinda peaceful. me lyk. (:
wanted to movie but i was kinda a loner yasee. sadface much.
but it's okayy, i kinda fancy me times alot these days. too much drama keels, oops.
tmr's gonna be another slack day! with spas taking up half the time of lessons. (:
hope spa's gonna be a breeze! and im kinda excited for the hols!
studying sessions with jas and sherlyn and yy's gonna be productive and fun! and dheres tuition with kenneth, gonna do all i can to score well for retests, dont wanna let anyone down anymore~
dhen dheres work with krista! it's gonna be fun, and kaching-y!
getting excited thinking about all of it~ gotta thank god for having awesome peepo lyk dhem in my life, not to forget my family of course. as much as having cold war with dhem half the time, my parents are awesome kids disguised as adults. :D and did i mention how cute my bro is? if he's not my annoying bro, i might have fallen for him. AHEM,
anywayxzx, im kinda obsessed with the colour brown.
idk why, think it's kinda cool. (: everything black seems to look lyk brown! the font of this post, my bra colour, everything. LOL.
kinda reminds me of this particular somebody me and yy have a thing about.
okayy maybe it's just me. :x cant help having a cool dude as an eye candy can we? or can i...? HEEZ.
have been calling him brown pen since idk when, HAHAHAS, love inside jokes. (:
maybe brown's gonna be my 2nd fav colour aside purple.
one when im less high and the other when i feel lyk i have an overdosage of drugs~
ohh, and i realised justin bieber lyks purple too! #justsaying ~
:D

P.S. twitter's kinda emo today. usual emo posts about girl/boy probs, quarrels with parents and even breakups. O: whatever it is, "The best thing you can wear is your smile." So listen to whatever you need to hear, block out whatever raaabeeesh that might pollute your ear and yadah! Life's good!

And the story of us seems like a tragedy now.

Hakuna Matata,

2011-10-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

My dad sent me this pic, he has an iphone 4 for himself but still! HAHAHAS. :D

watched the lion kings musical on friday!
together with choir and eldds peepo~
the show was amazing,
sound effects, story line, songs, EVERYTHING.
enjoyed myself pretteh much, mingling with the juniors and all. (:
reached home at about 12.30am! had a bad experience though, but i gotta admit im getting epic. LOL.
slacked my weekends away teevee-ing, though i completed my hw! and nic thinks imma good girl, HAHAHAS.
ohh and my channel u show ended. the storyline was interesting and all. thank goodness the ending was a positive one, otherwise my mood would have been down in the dumps. :x
think im gonna read through nutrition in mammals later, before storybook-ing and off to lalaland~
dheres scool tmr, or rather for another 1 1/2 weeks. so much for the end of term 4. ):
chem ssp tmr is gonna be bull, gotta reach scool at 7. having lessons with my fav teacher early in the morning aint exactly the best way to start my booster lessons, but whatever!
looking forward to bio spa after scool, it's gonna be fun! (:
exams are on tuesday, HMMM. :x
not really looking forward to chem spa though, and cheena o's, ughhh killmenow. ):
hope i can go shopping with mummy soon!
dheres job training on saturday, cant wait to start working! $$$$$$$$$$, (Y)
kaythxbye, i dont seem to have much to say today~

P.S i didnt post on friday cause i was sleepy and all. as for the thankyou post, if you know you're a genuine fwen, dhen i love you! <3 otherwise, idgaf about you. (:
P.P.S , some peepo are annoying. lyk mega annoying. UGHHH.
P.P.P.S , hakuna matata means no worries. soooo smile everyone!

So how come when I reach out my fingers, it seems like more than distance between us.

I wish you were here,

2011-10-27T22:44:00.001+08:00

Born to be somebody - Feel it, believe it, dream it, be it.

Never say never - Whenever you knock me down, I will not stay on the ground. I will never say never, I will fight till forever.

had a mix of emotions today~
from sleepy to normal to hyper to crazy dhen back to sian again.
nahh, my big aunt's not visiting, it's the peepo around me that affects mai mood ya'see~
scool was kinda slacked.
monopoly dealed with yy and kenji and guangyan half the time~
sherlyn, quenton, javier, dingyuan and co joined in at other times.
cheekeong is an annoying assx, SWEAR.
forever cheating and claiming to be the dealer, while giving peepo weird cards. ):<
laughed pretty much though. (:
played block catching around the scool with yy, kenji and weemeng half an hour before scool ended.
it was fun running around, cheating each other feelings and stuffs~
had movie screening after at lido with the entire sec 3!
naise experience, though threwed my face x1000000 time thx to yy, LOL.
laughed lyka mad bull sitting between yy and kenji, not to forget gy's annoying comments throughout the show.
watched 1911! and it was suppose to be a cool show cause it was jackie chan's 100th movie, BUTTTT, being cheena and all~
listening to gy giving kenji failed explanations throughout the entire movie and texting bird using kenji's phone was more entertaining!
it's not everyday when the whole cinema's filled with peepo yaknow and you get to shout clap whatever without getting thrown out. (:
went for job interview with chan after.
got semi-lost, learnt to never listen to security guards, dhey give crap directions~ :x
got the job in a breeze, cause, HAHAHAS.
anyways, dheres gonna be training and all those whatnots.
called my mama to give me our address whenfilling in the application form, yea its time i memorised our address, and her new number.
kinda lazy and all so it's gonna take some time. :x
anyways, she made me reconsider my choice of working.
dheres exams and hw and lessons and overseas trips and all, was so sure that i could cope.
but can i really?
kinda emo-ed my way home, and someone else had to piss me off.
swear i regret being a naise kiddo, granting you your wish and all. =.=
dad had to make everything worse by being a loud speaker.
and so, lost all mood to hw, but now im feeling a whole lot better, and the reasonn's kinda lame!
watched justin bieber's "never say never" movie.
yea i know alot of peepo has issues with him and all,
but if you put down that hatred, that jealousy, that everything, dheres this moral behind the movie that's kinda awesome.
cant believe im saying this, but songs lyk "never say never" or "born to be somebody" have lyrics with meaning and defintely songs worth listening.
on a lighter note, i kinda regret rejecting the offer for OBS, cause i kinda miss camp, AND MAD NIGHT FROM NACLI!
hope sec 4's camp gonna be fun and not boring talks all day long. :x
2nd last day of scool today!
wasnt very remarkable, but thank god for awesome fwens who have been by my side throughout the year.
quarrels, laughters, tears, anger and whatnots, im glad i grew older by a year with dhem, glad i came into 3e4!
maybe im gonna dedicate an entire post of mushiness for my awesome class and various other darlings from other classes tmr! (:
ohh, and im proud to say all 44 of us got promoted to 4e4, so many 4's~!
whatever it is, it's time to work had for SPAS, cheena o's for hcl students, and chem/bio retests for peepo who didnt score well, so gambatteh everyone! (:

I have nine million, nine-hundred and ninety-nine thousand, nine-hundred and ninety-nine more tears to shed, before I'll stop missing you.

Deafened by this silence,

2011-10-24T23:35:00.003+08:00

Destiny, it's something that only god knows, and have the power to control.

imma bad kiddo. wont stop touching my com so i decided to blog now and shut it down. ):
scool was BLAAA i guess? how entertaining could it get huh?
ginger was in a bad mood, since she shouted at yy.
nic went "this is the first time i ever hear her shouting at anyone other dhen ms!"
sadist, LOL.
golden flower was the exact opposite though.
she's kinda cute when she's not mean. (: and she got excited all over when we intro-ed funshion to her.
excited lyk high pitch mega big smiley face talking lyka bullet train kinda excited!
which was kinda cool, (:
chem was bull, caught no balls of what mrs lim's talking about. though im kinda glad i didnt get screamed at today~
think i better find kenneth over the weekends. :x
bio spa was fun, obviously. (: partners with cody was... irritaining, entertaining plus irritating.
and weemeng plus dy never fail to make spa a tad interesting~
burnt cereals! was fighting with cody over which honey stars i wanted, smiley face.
scool ended and cheena timed practice after was kinda cool.
had paper 2 so it was kinda relaxed. (:
aaaaaand, the boys in my band are all united in the wrong way. LOL.
script checking ended on a high note, cause ginger made the entire cohort clap for us since we were "peepo who were interested in learning". translate that to cheena with the accent of course. (:
kudos to kahwai actually, now my entire band is good kiddos! <:
went to bengawan solo idk how to spell with krista after to pick up job application forms!
unexpected meetup with someone on my way home.
dhere were regrets and negative feelings of course, but given another chance, i still think this is the best decision for everyone. (:

home was... quiet as usual.
growing up kinda sucks huh? especially if it means distancing from your parents or being totally impossible to communicate with dhem just cause it's awkward/weird/against the rule/daigou/whatever.
cause if the "li shang wang lai" rule exists, dhen why does the "listen to your parents" rule exists?
if the "everyone makes mistakes" rule exists, why does the "adults are always right" rule exists?
if everyone's given the right to speak his mind the minute he was born, as long as his words doesnt hinder the peace and stability of a country, dhen why are we not allowed to say how we feel, or do what we want to do?
humans are negative, complicated, ironic, crazy assxs that deserves to have their butt kick. HMMM, ):
cause if things were really as simple as abc, "maniac" would mean "benovalant angel", "depression" would mean "someone riding across stars" and "suicide" would mean "unicorn".
so in simple terms, a depressed maniac who attempted suicide would mean "a benovalant angel who's riding across the stars on a unicorn."
see the irony~?
okayy im being too debate-ty on mai blog, maybe it's all these supressing of feelings that's taking a turmoil on me.
whatever, HEEZ. :D

He asked, girl would you sing with me, but I'm sorry I dont do duets.

I'm sorry I loved you,

2011-10-23T21:37:00.002+08:00

She said i think i'll go to Boston, I think i'll start a new life, I think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name.

awesome day today!
had the time of my life, enjoyed chilling, shopping, laughing, going crazy and BLAAAA.
yea right, who am i kidding. =.=
literally nua-ed mai life away in mai room, from reading to movie to chem wb to drowning my life away in songs.
feels kinda weird and moody not texting kenji or dy or birdie or other cool peepo. ):
bird is cute, complained that nonoe's entertaining him, and he's gonna go to bintan tmr!
together with the other na and nt peepo, awww. ):
kinda looking forward to the hols, with work and play and studies.
drafted out mai study plan today!
maths and sciences are gonna be the main priority! together with 3 el books every week and maybe a cheena one too? or maybe not, hmmm. :x
shall start learning everything from square 1!
im kinda cool with humans so whatever~
plan's gonna start on 1st nov, so minus 1 week for both spas and cheena o's and another week for booster program, i have 1 1/2 months left, which is most prolly more dhen enough time to master everything, i hope! :x
as for the remaining days till dhen, just chill, relax and have fun? (:
this week is the last day of scool!
gonna be released at 1.20 cause of o's, but it doesnt make any difference since dhere's timed practice and extra lessons for spa.
dear sec 2's, better enjoy your life now~
kinda looking forward to meet yy tmr though, hopefully she can cheer me up~
maybe we should go watch a movie after timed practice or sth. since i dont have a phone and dheres no other possible means of contacting me. maybe i could even not go home till the sun rises the next day and claim that a pig eating gorilla kidnap me for the night! no phone you see, so mai parents have gotta believe me. (:
think im going insane, must have been cooped up in mai room for too long. :x
ohhwells, it's a new week ahead!
and it's even better cause i gotta see mrs lim's face first thing in the morning!
why not add in the fact that she's the awesomest teacher ever and im undoubtly her favourite student!
yea right, sense the sarcasm? ):

P.S, to all those off to bintan, HAVE FUN!
P.P.S, good luck to o level peepo! just 1 more month, gambatte!
P.P.P.S, life sucks, i need hugs from the girls. ):

good day! (:

You dont know me, and you dont even care.

Cause life still goes on,

2011-10-23T00:53:00.002+08:00

Have been watching this video everyday for the past week. Try watching it too! (:

it's 12.01am, so it's officially 23rd of oct~!

less dhen 3 more weeks till cheena o's, scared or scared? MEGA SCARED. :x

spent my entire day without mai phone! why?

mom confiscated it, yada, parents pms all the time. ):

was tweeting some stuffs cause of morning blues and dhere goes my phone.

regretted tiny tower-ing before that cause i didnt replied any texts, or hear your voice recording...

but whatever! didnt cry, surprisingly~

quenton, "self-pity is overrated. do you seriously think anyone will care? maybe for a while, but how's that gonna help you succeed?"

kenneth, "the race has just begun, and nothing can stop you from finishing this race apart from death. so dry your tears and it's time to move on!"

nick vujici, "everytime i fail, i try again, and again, and again."

these words are enough to keep me going,

soooo life's good! positive mindset positive mindset positive mindset~

headed down to tuition to show kenneth my test papers, he was late so i practiced some cheena compre while waiting. yea, i know imma good kiddo. (:

swear kenneth is awesome, think he can go be a motivational speaker!

he talked to me abit and ive decided not to let him down again, wish hope pray. :x

headed over to the library after cause i was in a mood for some metime.

bought gongcha! walked till the polyclinic and sat at the bench watching peepo walk past cause it was raining and dhere was no shelter.

thought about a hell load of stuffs.

no distractions, no nothing, just me and mai gongcha~

the rain wouldnt stop so i strolled in the drizzle, thank goodnes im not sick. :x

borrowed lyk 3 books? 2 on romance and 1 on some motivational thingy.

it's time i spend more time with me myself and i, and books too!

a quadrilateral date? HMMMM.

sooo, lunch was gongcha and flossbread, dinner was pocky, will my fats go away if this continues? HAH. (:

i guess you prolly hate me now huh?

im so sorry for letting you down, cause i know 2 years have been a mega long time.

i tried, i really did, and dhere were times when i needed you more than anything.

but im sorry i have to let you down...

you're a good guy and all, but that's the problem, cause you're too good for me.

i know i screwed up and i deserve a good thrashing,

but i hope you find a better girl, one that will care for you as much as you care for her.

i'll never forget those wonderful memories you gave me,

but goodbye, and im sorry...

You're the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.

A brand new beginning,

2011-10-22T01:19:00.004+08:00

Stand up everytime you fall, cause self-pity is overrated.

HI,

it's been lyk how long? 8 months since i touched my blog.

decided to blog again cause i realise im becoming an emo bitch without it,

oops. :x

changed everything cause i wanna start anew, and so the title suggests. (:

so, i was deleting my previous posts, all 547 all dhem,

and i realised i changed alot.

the way I type and all, guess peepo do change huh?

came across posts such as "I hate him, this frigging tall sissy dhat won stop buqqing me. ):"

or even "my darling iz awesome! luv him a lot!"

hahas, kayys i was a childish kiddo, :x

and sooo, it's kinda weird typing here again!

guess i need more time to get use to it all.

life has been...?

no comments. ):

ohh, im still contemplating whether to change my url or not,

since it's the only thing left unchanged.

d33p-inluv, it brings back memories of you and me.

how time flies~

I guess karma comes back around.